The Greatest Gift I had

It's been the hardest semester in my entire college life. I've been Ignored, thrown out of my class, and the worst of it all, a failure in some of my subjects, But of all this miseries, I had never been so happy. I'm happy to have my new sister inside my beloved mother's womb, never been so excited in my life to see my mother in this state though she has been pregnant before, but I guess I'm too young to notice everything back then...

It was the week before Christmas..

My Mother's water had just broke. I had never been so excited, the excitement of being a Kuya Again,and being my mother confined to a hospital, I have spent my Christmas as a holiday with loud musics and happiness but not konwing what's really happening at the hospital.

As far as I can remember, It was 10 in the evening of the eve, and i was celebrating, then my Dad come home, to tell me this dreadful news, My mother is suffering and so is My baby sister. At that time, I am back to my old self again. I can't help but Cry. I did not aide help to the situation but rather make it harder and hopeless.

The time is ticking. It is now 12:00,It's Christmas time, but we still have no news. I really want to know what's going on. There's nothing I can do, At that very moment of my Life, i have called onto god once again, with his hope, His righteousness and his kindness. I had been a total fool not to surrender this situation to God.

2 o'clock in the morning, my sadness ceased. God has uplift my worries, I am now confident that God will do something miraculously and he did. And at exactly 4 in the morning. Great news, My mother had survived, and so her child,this was my Mama's text at 4:21 am:

"May Baby Girl na nasa Incubator"..


I am so happy and fulfilled at that time, all i can do now is hope and pray that things will be normal again, but there is a problem, my sister is a premature baby. It was the 25th of December, I have visited the hospital and see for the very first time, My mother in her ever-smiling face but as it turns out, we had a problem, My father and my tita is busy pumping out oxygen to our newly born baby.

The second day, on the 26th of December, at exactly 5:30 am, My Sister finally gave in to his Creator. As i can remember, I held her hand for the last time as I have felt her warmth in my hands, I am so down and lonely, as my last tears were falling for my sister, the words to this song came to me, I was bursting out in tears, I can't stop crying. The first song that i have heard was "Nag-aalab", it is a powerful gospel song.

a song showing you how you became small as you stand before God. This misery in my life taught me to be strong and to be firm and accept any burns from the flame that god has put into your heart.

"nag-aalab ang pag-ibig mo sa akin O diyos.."

"Hanggang matupok lahat kong pagmamalaki"..

as his creation, we can never ask for more than to thank him for his will.. even through the hardest of time, God has something in-store for us..He may take anything precious as Gold but we must gladly accept it even if it turns out that the one taken is replaced by nothing compared to it.

But when we accept it we'd be sure that it has a piece of our past miseries and by God's grace we will learn from it. I am now happy to know that God had showed me how it feels to have a baby sister and I will take this very moment in my hands forever and this is my promise:

never let go of my one and my only life, never let go of my beloved Creator,never let go of the GREATEST GIFT I HAD forever, it was her, and i will definitely miss her presence.

It was a memorable Christmas, in my entire life, forever...